Young Rogue

Let it go..

Its a world of your own making.
Noone can help you but you.
You've got to believe that the demons aren't real,
That what you're feeling is just transitory and it will soon be okay.
I know you've been through a lot,
Noone should have to go through that kind of pain,
But its over and done with it and someday you're going to have to let it go.
I know you're hurting right now,
Hurting so bad you don't think it will ever end.
But it will..it always does and one of these days you're going to have to start trusting again.
I don't guarantee that it'll be easy but it is important that you keep the faith
Cause without it you're lost and you've got no place to go
Nothing but the pain and the guilt wrenching at your soul
Could you have helped them? Would it have made a difference?
Maybe, perhaps..but it matters not now:
The past is gone and it ain't ever coming back..
Let it die so that you can start living

hmm..now tht i've written tht..which btw doesn't even sound like poetry..i can write other stuff..
like how i hv hockey trials today tht i'm not sure i can or shud attend..too many things clashing at once and i'm in middle of pulling an all-nighter rite now so it don't look to me as if i'll be in any fit shape come evening in ne case..
the community service society interviews went well thou it was kindof off-set by the whole stupid compo essay marks i got..not to mention the CP marks..boy do i have a bone to pick wid tht TA..annoying annoying miss..the lesser sed abt..ahem..her kind, the better.nehow gtg finish studyin fer ths test..just takin a breather writing ths post and all...sigh..

carpe noctem..

acha hai agar samajh sako...

got ths forward today..i did get it b4 too but ths one has more tacked on at the end...an example of poetry at its lowest..umm mayb..*some more stuff comin to mind*..neways..

acha hai agar samajh sako..

Main kal ja raha tha
ke meri chappal toot gai
ab chappal to moochi seeta hai
seeta to darzi bhi hai
darzi to kapray seeta hai
kapray to rangeen hotay hain
rangeen to lota bhi hota hai
lota to bathroom main hota hai
bathroom main to nal bhi hota hai
nal to lohay ka hota hai
lohay ki to istiri bi hoti hai
istri to garam hoti hai
garam to Custard bhi hota hai
custard to peela hota hai
peela to chooza bhi hota hai
chooza to anday main se nikalta hai
anda to sufaid hota hai
sufaid to doodh bhi hota hai
doodh to bhains daity hai
bhains to kaali hoti hai
kaala to bangali bhi hota hai
bangali to paan khata hai
paan to laal hota hai
laal to gulab main bhi hota hai
gulaab main to kantay hotay hain
kantain to machli main bhi hotay hain
machli to achi hoti hai
acha to Bander bhi hota hai
bander to bander hota hai
parhnay walay bander jaisay hi hotay hain
jo parh kar apna time zayahh karte hain..
well..
khuda nay aap ko bhaija to bhaija..
per bhaija jo bhaija..aisa bhaija
kay bhaijay main bhaija hi nahi bhaija..
ye mujhe kisi nay bhaija.. isliye maine aap ko bhaija
Aap ko Bura Laga ? Aap Kisi Aur ko Bhej Do.

Hisab BaraBar ... :wink:

orkut mania

doesn't the name say it all? i recently read an article wid tht name and ya it is like a craze around here..
a while back i got repeated mails frm friends askin me to join up...wen i met them i wud b asked first thing y i hadn't joined up...it ws gettin crazy so i thought i'd better get around to doin it...
first time around..not that impressed but slowly i've joined the ranks of those who quite fairly call it the best time-waster...and since i do actively search fer new and better ways to waste time tht in it itself reads like a compliment thou if u must know i did locate an old classmate wid it so wel the claims ring true...oh and all of my freshmen class coming frm out of city did make friends all over the batch b4 they even got here and they think tht ws kinda cool so...and yeah if ur really into it u can make tons of new friends so it does do everything it sez it does..
still it is kindof weird sitting in a computer lab and seeing one student after another checkin out his account on orkut...some say it'll pass but i hv a feeling the mania is here to stay..wht do u think?

~peace out~

impossible..

why do i always inspite of my better judgement try to make ppl look at the positive side of things? oh yeah...i know..coz i get really uncomfortable just 'ahan-ing' and sympathizing while they prattle on about how sucky their life is...and i'm not talking abt normal everyday complaining...i'm talking serious, heavy-duty whining...mayb i'm being harsh..do u think i'm being harsh?

see the point is wen there's no way out of a situation giving urself ulcers over it just won't help..but fer some reason ppl still like doing it...and no sooner do u tell them their prob is..well kindof not tht problematic..u become like the enemy and they wander of in search of more..ahem..understanding beings...understanding what?!? tht they're no action, no guts, all hopeful whiny-assed no-doers?

hmmph...i'm thru wid the lot of them..today is the last time i try to ACTUALLY help one of the sods...i mean they don't even WANT to b helped-they're too busy enjoying their self-proclaimed victum-status..

and b4 the lot of u reading ths here eat me up let me explain..i'm really not above listening to someone's sorrows but wen they start up wid 'my life is at an end..', 'my dreams r all shattered...' etc etc themes over trivial issues to the point where they're lost to all reasoning i just can't work wid them nemore...they're like goners..u kno other sad-dimension ppl with no outside communication satellites...impossible..just impossible..*sigh*..

Carpe Noctem..

Not For You

numbness...same routine..wht am i? a machine? reminds me of class discussion..A.I..
waiting fer sites to load..bored outta my mind..still got stuff to do..always hv stuff to do..guess its better than hvin nothin to do.
mayb i like hvin stuff to do..i keep on signing up fer it..hvn't called us yet..wonder wht'll happen wen they do..
a movie..ya tht cud take my mind off stuff..
attended media orientation..good society..dedicated ppl..wud like to learn..
had friend over..not bad..watched TV..okay pathetic..better than walking all over the place..
nice way of riting..don't need much effort..

Carpe Noctum...

Life is a lemon and i want my money back..

AUDEO-I Dare

INVICTUS

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance,
I have not winced or cried aloud;
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade.
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

-William Ernest Henley (1849-1903)

Bad Beginnings..

i hv had such a rough day and its only half gone...yesterday first i agreed to come watch ths movie fer our writing class WITHOUT realizing it ws in the early morn and not at nite...we nocturnal beings hv it so tuff..*sniff*..nehow THEN on a spur-of-the-moment thing i bought some bks...see teh thing is books and sleep don't go well with me..if i start one and i like it i'm gonna b up till i finish it and thts EXACTLY wht happened..i kept telling myself it wud finish soon and i'd b okay fer the movie in the morn. but the damn thing didn't finish BEFORE morn. so i barely got an hour's sleep b4 my stupid alarm woke me up..now i wud hv gone straight bck to sleep and my word to come b damned only my friend ws coming to pick me up and i had no illusions of her not just walking into my room as nauseously awake and fresh as ever..(inside air quotes:'one of those morning freaks')..and waking me up rudely just wen i ws drifting of again and dragging me there so..*shudder*..i did get up..wait..im not done yet..we got there to find tht the admin. had screwed-up and the writing ppl and the MUN ppl had the same auditorium assigned so i basically wandered all over the place wid my frendz till the thing got resolved, missed the starting 20 minutes and for all intents-and-purposes slept thru the bloody movie...needless to say i'm not in a peachy mood at the end of it all esp. since i can hardly sleep rite now even coz there's ths party ths evening thts a must-attend..(grandma's bd u kno..family thing..not easy to wiggle out of)..not tht i mind going there u understand..i'm an old hand at managing without sleep..but the uselessness of ths morning is KILLING me AND i hv these assignments and shyt to do tht i will NOW hv to cram into good ol' sunday fer cryin out loud!!
did i hear someone say 'it ws all my fault'?coz if i did i'm going bash tht lil' punk into sushi and the truth and fairness and crap b damned...YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED :evil:

On a clear day...

ths goes out to all them folks who r not feeling too good about themselves or their lives today..

Movie:On a clear day
Title song...a coupla verses..

     '...and who wud ever guess...the powers u possess...and who wud not b stunned to c u prove...there's more to us than surgeons can remove! So much more than we ever knew...so much more were we born to do! Should u draw bck the curtain of ths i am certain...you'll b impressed with you. On a clear day, rise and look around you...and u'll see who u r! On a clear day, how it will astound u... wen the glow of ur being outshines every star!

     'You'll feel a part of...every mountain, sea and shore. You will hear, from far and near...a world u've never heard b4. And on a clear day...on that clear day...u can see Forever...and ever...and evermore...'

tension nahin lene ka...mast ho kar jeene ka.. 8)

    & nbsp;

February

"What does your birth month reveal about you?"

February
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

Fairly correct.

u can find the quiz at www.zenhex.com.

sob

LAS

Tough Girl

'being exactly me'

i'm not sorry for being exactly me
but behind the veneer if u look closely u will see
a girl whos frightened and afraid to let it show
a girl who cares so much that she hides behind a cloak
the toughness is just a shield, the indifference just a hoax
its all just an impression meant to keep away the world
all she means to do is love but give so much of herself she cannot
not because she doesn't want to but because she thinks she must not
too much of this world she has seen go to the dogs
friendships betrayed and trusts lost
she doesn't want to go thru life this way
making herself strong and keeping safe
she doesnt want to always act as if she doesnt need help
but people make it hard for her to find her real self
still im not not sorry for being exactly me
even if its just a shadow of how i could be

vele...

i swapped my maths section to get a better teacher but now i hv to attend the class at 8:45 in the morning..:(...its 6:30 in the evening and im still here...:(...and im going to still b here till 8:00 pm...:(...so if someone didnt get it in ths post im going to indulge in complaining full-time...did i mention tht i already hv like 3 assignments and its only like the second day of classes...*sigh*...or tht my eng teacher likes to cold-call?or im going to hv like 4 quizzes per week?and like a dozen assignments at the same time?or that im expected to do something abt it all wen im at the damn university till 8 at nite attending conferences and classes and such?whoever sed ths place ws supposed to b fun had NO idea wht he ws talking abt...and we're told to enjoy the first quarter coz its supposed to get tuff after ths..TOUGH...like ths ISN'T?!?yeah im worked-up rite now...wel not really but i hv nothing better to do than complain so...i cud get started on that assignment thing but im lazy na.. :D...

chill maro..8)..

changes

i went to my orientation yesterday and wel today..it ws chill..

changes..they happen..one of my friend is pregnant which means im going to become an aunt pretty soon,another is engaged and will b married soon and still others are leaving abroad fer higher studies....these r ppl i've known fer like a decade.i went everywhere wid them...even to college..
actually i dont really thnk on such emotional lines but one of my friend does and ya wel...turns out my lyfe is changing whether i wnt it to or not...my classes start monday...4 yrs...wht happens then?there's open talk of marriage and shyt..i mean wth?hellooo...im a kid here...i dont need ths..some stupid beings hv even sent proposals...its confusing..i dont believe in long engagements and if neone thinks they're going to get me tied down at the age of 22 they've got another thing coming....fer starters i hv no faith in the marriage system...hell i dont even believe in love...i know y ofcourse and its all such a risk newayz...god!i've gone off on such a tangent!!i ws only planning to talk abt the orientation and stuff...crap!.nehow im gone..