TLS

06.16.05 (4:22 am)   [edit]
im leaving ths blog.maloom hai pehle bhi kaha tha..i know i came bck.but whtevr.if i wnt ppl to know where i've gone they'll know, warna forget me.it's not like ne of u care.wht i don't get is y so many ppl visit ths dump neways.forget visitors..my tblog ratings hv shot up evn though i hvn't posted as often in a while now.wtf is tht all abt.

yeah im mad..i ws plenty rude to the gang a while ago.i think i shud go with them..running frm angry ppl at 5 in the morning has a way of getting ur mind off things.too late..they're off and im not done yet.

girls don't do ths..yes they do.wen they're very very angry.i shud know..i did almost leave home once..too bad i had nowhere to go.i ws tht angry once.a long, long time ago.i understand..i really do.

im damn sure u don't know wht im talking..but then again im not so sure i know either.


Someday, somewhere in a dream you'll remember me
I'll be long gone then having left no trace
Nothing to show that I was ever yours
Like a leaf in the wind
Fluttering away to die in peace..
I'll be long gone

Kohl

06.15.05 (2:23 am)   [edit]
its been quite a whirlwind week.very hard to explain unless u've normally done things like made it a point to ring someone's bell at 3am coz a dude at tht house dhamkofied u or sneaked out at 5am to cross a bridge (yes..a bridge..don't ask why) or picked flowers at dawn or made someone put bck wht they stole while u covered for them or tried to hv some shugal only to get ur plans spoiled again and again and again or slept thru a run away attempt coz u were up all nite making sure someone didn't kill someone else and the kids were worried silly or played cards all the freakin' the time or played ludo for hours and hours and hours or had them steal again afterall or cudn't decide on a movie to watch in all of defense and cavalry for 5 hours or had a water fight or watched a different kind of fight or watched pizza hut plans turn to mini golf plans to joyland plans to bbs plans to services plans (wha?) to afterwards end up at either hotspot and joyland and masooms again or laughed urself silly buying cucumbers or convinced a guy to come home for chocolate milk atleast before he went and killed himself or tried to explain how ppl care to someone ending up in a failed attempt resulting in a mini-competition to get away with the final surly word or spent all these days with so many ppl making it so very hard to get away or sat around in a net cafe chatting to the very ppl u went in with or spent the longest time talking on the phone which u nevr evr do..and certainly not with ur sister or had fish in the summers with lightning streaking the night sky and a dust storm of magnanimous proportions raging or after eons, it seems, climbed ovr gates and walls to get in and out or felt so very bad for sleeping in every day..hey parineeta's on so they're calling for me.i'll probably delete ths..its tht kind of post.yeah going alreadyy!

Crossroads

06.09.05 (12:02 am)   [edit]
It's a night for writing poetry..but I've lost the will to share.

Damn u.

aisi koi jage nahi jahaan bache ga..

06.06.05 (6:18 pm)   [edit]
ugh..im in a net cafe aur sab yaar ek doosre se hi larr rahe hain.koi faida to hai nahi.socha tha convo cp kar doon gi lekin woh hadd se ziyada bigar gayi hai.aur ab time bhi khalas ho gaya hai..daamnn.

Kajra Re

06.05.05 (8:10 pm)   [edit]

tonite im leaving for another cousins house.idhar phone line main masla hai to udhar phone hi kharab hai..so wen i next come online it'll probably be frm university or a net cafe.khair..i got another tag from brokenshard.im gonna do it pretty fast coz i hv to go eat soon aur phir jaana hai..akhir kya pata phir net lage na lage..(and tht's the kind of line tht comes frm watching kal ho na ho again at 4 in the morning with my crazy cousins..and then..hmm..lol.nm.)


Q. What is the one thing you do everyday?
A. Listen to music..it's how my mom knows I'm up.


Q. What is the one thing you forget to do?
A. Nothing.


Q. What has been you best movie-theatre experience?
A. I would say Titanic..not because of the movie but because of my family.


Q. Which movie do you regret watching in the theatre?
A. None.


Q. If you can have one album as your playlist, which album would you pick and why?
A. Sochna paren ga..mood nahin hai.


Q. Apart from your own blog (ehhh), who do you think has the most humourous blog out there?
A. That's tough man..I refuse to answer! Sach main waise..it varies with time.


Q. How many blogs do you visit everyday?
A. Like every single day or just average for a day? No blog every day..average around 8, I guess.


Q. What kinda guy/girl are you?
A. Weird qs..


Q. Where did your nickname originate?
A. I just came up with it..jaan choro.


Q. What other nicknames do you like?
A. Kyun bataoon? Acha baba..stray angel is one.


Q. If you have one person to take with you to moon, who would you pick?
A. Noone. Chand bhi koi jaane ki jaga hai?


Q. If you were given a fully paid ticket to tour a place, what place would it be?
A. Australia.


Q. Are you a fan-boy/girl of something?
A. Nopes.


Q. Who is your best friend(if any)?
A. Maybe my sister.


Q. Who is the one person you feel totally vulnerable infront of? i.e Who knows you the best?
A. I don't feel 'vulnerable' in front of anyone. Kukker, Aks and FZ knows me best in different ways.


Q. Whats the best way to reach you?
A. Reach me how? If I'm around jst come talk. Warna contact karna hai to sms maar do.


Q. What turns you on?
A. Never you mind. 


Q. What turns you off?
A. Slow thinkers.


Q. What are your tear-jerker movies?
A. None..atleast I can't remember any.


Q. Where do you see yourself 10 years from now?
A. Working or touring.


Q. What song do you think has the best lyrics?
A. Ab itna main nahin sochne lagi..I mean one song..ONE song?!? No freakin' way!


Q. What is crap music?
A. Some pop music. And Im sorry but I CANNOT stand ghazals so by my definition tht's crap too..jo karna hai kar lo.


Q. Name a person.
A. why? WHY? WHHHYYYY?


Q. Who do you tag to do this?
A. Koi karta to hai nahin..I'm depressed ji..and disappointed..and a lot of other things you shud feel sorry for making me feel *loud sniff* Acha acha..serious ab..I tag Aberrant.


 

Truth or Dare

06.03.05 (4:39 am)   [edit]

I don't feel like writing to anyone.Trouble is I've been ignoring (at an advanced stage: offending) people who want me to reply. And just now I was thinking about explaining to atleast one of them why I'm not..the gist of which was 'its a chore'. 


Now you may not be aware..but people are damnably sensitive and never mind what you think. They just are. The whole sniveling lot of them. I know coz that's just the kind of statement that keeps getting me into trouble.


What's even worse is that I don't care! Well about most of them at any rate..I guess it won't kill me to write one 'nice' mail.


*frowns*


So I'll get right to it then, before I decide it's too much of an effort again.


 

My December

06.02.05 (4:19 pm)   [edit]

and to think i ws worrying ovr wht i wud do ths summer..


the suggestions (not mine..my plans hv a bleak future now *stares into the distance*) so far are: attend classes that i don't need to (dun ask..people are weird.remind me to ask her why she's taking the summer off if she wnts to sit thru it neways), hang out at univ when i don't hv to (same girl *sigh* some ppl hv NO life and they hv to inform the world abt it too..me i like to keep it quiet *grin*), take self-defense classes with a friend, go swimming with friends, go to gym with friends, outings, buying stuff for the wedding, more blah that i refuse to print here (talking for hours and hours can definitely turn ur brain  to mush)..and tht's all while being in kaghaan.and when im in khi i hv to be at dance rehearsals.admittedly im damn good at juggling things and doing evrything at once but not while being in different cities!!


here's something i wrote last december.the reason stuff like ths is finding its way here is tht its losing its important.


maybe i just dun understand some things.there are some things i just can't believe, even if they happen close to me.i tried and i failed.i wish i knew how to forget.

my writing..it changes with my feelings.not abnormal..but still new to me.its like i hv all these different personalities, all clashing with each othr.the sense wins over the heart most days, the joy ovr the hurt..but sometimes its just gloss..and only i know..but i doubt evn tht somedays..

perhaps i'm heading for disaster quite unknowingly..trusting i will be free while accepting tht i will not.but i digress frm my purpose as i write in riddles..thoughts as they come.the best kind and the worst.and it will nevr end.